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Thanksgiving/ Erntedank

#Grapes from our balkony – #a big harvest – #good and healthy juice and gelee

In Germany we are celebrating „Thanksgiving“ today. So I feel inspired to write and share with you some impressions. If we would directly translate the German Word for „Thanksgiving“, „Erntedank“ into English, it would be „Harvestthanks“ or „thanking for the harvest“. In early days in Germany, most people were farmers and lived from their own harvest. The „Harvestthanks“ literally meant thanking God for all the harvested produce. Nowadays, since very few are farming, and most of us not, what is our “Harvestthanks”?

I’m today reflecting on all the things God has blessed me with.

I’m so grateful for the gift of  life.

When I look at my two wonderful daughters, I’m so amazed at how God has created them, how healthy, perfectly formed, no missing body parts… When I think about the way I look at my kids and marvel at them, I am reminded on how God our heavenly Father, the creator of our flesh and bones is looking at us and celebrating His perfect Work of creation.

Then I can really meditate on that scripture in Zephaniah 3:17 „the Lord your God is with you, the Mighty Warrior who saves. He will take great delight in you; in his love he will no longer rebuke you, but will rejoice over you with singing.“

How often are we discontent with ourselves? How often do we rather feel stuck with our human flaws than see the many little things that are actually good? God who created us, rejoices over us His creation. He knows the real value of what he has created.

My little daughters have no idea yet how precious they are to me, and they might never realise why I can simply look at them and rejoice over their lives (even with their excesses). I think that this is how it is with our own lives. We have no idea how much value we actually have before GOD, the Almighty, the Sovereign, and ever Faithful.

The same with the things that God has blessed us with. Do we really know and see the value of it? How often do we compare ourselves with others in terms of what they have and we don’t? Let’s look at our own lives today and take stock of what we actually have?

Maybe the working place comes with a lot of stress and imperfections, but it has helped to pay the bills last year?

Maybe the apartment you are living in is not the dream house you have in mind, but you have an address to retire to with a roof over your head; a protection from all kinds of weather.

Maybe you have problems or conflicts in your family but atleast you have people around you that you can share life with and who form you?

Maybe you don’t swim in money but atleast you have to eat, drink and to dress everyday.

I think a lot of times we tend to evaluate our lives too critically and as a result miss out on the precious moments making up our daily activities. So why not take today and think about the things that you can be grateful for, reflect on those things that you have planted this year where you can already see some progress or even a full harvest?

And please remember it’s not about perfection!

Especially not in the way we see and evaluate perfection. It can really help to see things in God’s eyes. God, the only one who is perfect.

„For with you (God) is the fountain of life; in your light we see light.“ Psalm 36:9

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2019 – the year to SHINE and to Conquer

Dear readers!

In the front page I shortly wrote a bit about the year 2019. But now I actually want to take some more time to write about 2019 on a deeper level. For me it is all time important to find out in which season I am in because I believe that the Lord has created different seasons as we can read in the book of Eccl. 3,1-8, in the bible. It helps me to understand and to deal with every season, situation and circumstance.

On my 31st birthday with my beautiful family


Besides the different seasons that can be in one year or over several years, I believe there is about every year that concerns people individually, nationally and some things are for all people all over the globe. That’s why I love to hear prophecies from other people about the year, to see if it aligns with what I’m sensing.

In Germany we also have a particular scripture for each year, called ‘Jahreslosung’. The scripture for this year is in Psalm 34,15: “(TURN FROM EVIL AND DO GOOD); SEEK PEACE AND PURSUE IT. I think this is such a relevant scripture in a time like this when there are a lot of things going on in the world: wars, fights, catastrophes, corruption, injustice, crime etc.

Every year when the year goes to an end I like to reflect on the whole year. I think about what were the highlights, what am I grateful for, what happened, what did God do, what was challenging. I look through my journal and check my goals for the year and evaluate it. Last but not least I try to pick out the best pictures of the year and we watch them all together as a family for new year’s eve. That is the best part of it, cause pictures somehow show the beauty of a year, the best moments, the highlights. They help my negative emotions to cheer up and to see the good things of a year. They help me to draw a positive conclusion. At the same time I also like to look into the new year, already, before the year ends. I like to take some time out with God and to ask HIM prayerfully what I can expect for 2019.

The ‘Beauty-Table’ my birthday gift in 2019 from my thoughtful husband. I’ve wished for it mainly to make the Afro-hair of our two princesses at a place where they can feel special and have good experiences with it. But it means also a lot more for me as 2019 is meant to SHINE!!! 😀

I give you some impressions that I personally got for 2019:

When 2018 was the year of new beginnings and breakthrough then 2019 God will establish these new things more and will stabilise them. From the foundation to the top. HE will give you more understanding as you seek HIM.

Psalm 36,10: “For with you is the fountain of life; in your light we see light” It is your time to SHINE. Try new things, go after your ideas. Focus. Never let your own fear stop you from moving forward. Don’t be afraid to shine or to do different. Be courageous, be, go with your creativity and let your loved ones live out their creativity as well. Stay opened for new ways. If you find yourself in a new situation take it optimistically and ask the Lord to show you the meaning of it before evaluating it negativeley. Seek things that have eternal values.

Following I have you summarised some prophecies from Lana Vawser’s website ( who posts for every year and whom I really respect because her previous prophesy for 2018 was so accurate:

2019 is going to be a year of significant OPPORTUNITY, it is going to be a year of significant INCREASE of heavenly vision and perspective

2019 is the year ASK (Jeremiah 33:3) and to move in divine wisdom and heavenly strategy like never before. 2019 will be a year where we will see the demonstration of the Lord’s “outstretched arm” to deliver and save in power, like never before. This is a time of great harvest. This is a time of great outpouring. This is a season of rain. The move of God that we are all anticipating and feel the Lord continually speaking about is upon us.

“I am decreeing over 2019 that it is a year to CONQUER and to ADVANCE. It is a year to take new ground and to move ‘off the beaten track’. […] For there will be many times in 2019 where it will require radical obedience and moving ‘against the grain’ in many ways, but where I guide, I will provide. Do not fear the testings that will come in this year for I have already given you the key to overcome. My Word and the decreeing of My Word will cause you to overcome. The ferocious focus of faith upon what I have spoken to you will cause you to move forward in the victory that is already yours in Me. For the enemy will come in 2019 with new strategies and new ways to ‘lure’, to ‘tempt’ and to ‘test’ but My people you will overcome and conquer as you stay close to My heart and decree My Word.”

“For these testing times and times of temptation are bringing a stretching and a fortification within you My people to carry My power in ways you have never experienced before. Do not despise the battles. Do not despise the time of testing, for I am giving you the keys to overcome. I am leading you into greater victory. There will be MAJOR demonstrations of My victory in and through your life in 2019 as you stay close to Me and hold onto My Word.”


God is increasing, strengthening, maturing and fortifying His Bride and His decree over you is that you will SHINE in 2019, that you will CONQUER in 2019 and be part of the mighty move of His Spirit upon the earth that’s before us.

Sermons for the new year that I can recommend to listen to:

– “Joyce Meyer – Cry Out Sermon 2019” auf YouTube an

– Steven Furtick, Elevation Church, Come through drippin:

– T. D. Jakes, God is pushing you to a place of more:

Have a blessed and purposeful year ahead of you! 🙏🏽💖👑

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2018 the year of Breakthrough and New Beginnings

2018 was clear for us our time is up in our present place, we need a change, we are stuck, we can’t move forward like that. Several spiritual leaders proclaimed that 2018 would be a year of Breakthrough and of New Beginnings. Cause of the number 8 that stands for a new beginning. Number 7 stands for complete, perfection. With the number 8 s. Th. new starts. So we believed in it and were expectant and pumped up for the new year. But on the 2nd of January we already got a slap in our face with a rejection of the visa for my husband for Canada. We had booked a flight by faith for the whole family put our hope in moving to a country that is more opened for foreigners and an english speaking country. We were shocked, cause we were so sure that it would work out. But now, what did that mean for us? Did God close the door because it was not his will and He even wanted to protect us from Or was it the devil who didn’t want us to make progress and wanted to kill our excitement for the year?

At the same time it was clear that my husband couldn’t continue with the Master that should have also ended in the same year but there were a lot of stones in his way and he had to leave his studies after the 3rd semester when we had already imagined how many great job possibilities he would have had as a graduate in Photonics, Master of Physics. It felt like s.o. took the ground of my feets. We both were discouraged, disappointed in life and God, had sleepless nights and were depressed at some point. All of a sudden we found us registered with Jobcenter, receiving money from the state which was all time s. th. we wanted to refuse. This time we didn’t have a choice. In the beginning it was really humiliating and embarrassing. So many changes and uncertainties over the years. We felt as such a failure. We were done with Germany. Too much injustice had we faced as a Cross-cultural couple, too much of racism for my black husband. We were just simply not fitting in the system, everywhere we went to people stirred at us, we were too exotic and too good for this country. With the 7 years that my husband served and invested in the country, what did he get back? Rejections of visas, discrimination because of his skin color and isolation from the society. It was heavy and I would not lie or exaggerate but we faced a lot in the five years of our marriage and I was so shocked how I got to know my home country from the time we got married.

At some point we took heart again, we had to fight, we couldn’t give up… My husband went all the 500 km again to apply for his Canadian visa and he started to do some courses in sports to become a sports agent and a sports coach.

At the end we can still say: 2018 was a wonderful year. There are so many highlights and things that I’m grateful for to mention:

1. Emmanuel and I had some very special dates. For example we could spend two days together in a wellness hotel while grandma and uncle took care of our kids. Later in the year the kids even stayed for 5 days alone with their grandparents the first time. That brought such a new freedom for us as a couple and refreshment to our marriage reminding us we are still young and in love with each other.

2. The biggest family highlight of the year was our long journey to Vancouver, Canada, that went sooo extraordinary smooth (after we had gotten the visa ;)) and was a very blessed, fun, favored time as a family where we experienced so much of the goodness of the Lord. Even so it didn’t work out as we expected that this great move of faith would bring a real movement out of Germany we are still grateful for the amazing 3 weeks we had in our dreamland Canada.

3. The journey out of Germany helped us to take the courage of canceling our apartment with the hope and faith of getting a job and apartment then at least in the south of Germany, close to my family. Last minute, thank God, God was so merciful and made Emmanuel overnight a teacher at a Christian school without him having a teaching degree. Two weeks later he started to teach and three weeks later we actually moved in our new well fitting apartment in the very south of Germany in one of the most beautiful areas of the country. The kids even got a kindergarten place in the same month and I also got a job one month later which I really like. God really shocked and surprised us with that move. We are still processing and trying to understand it cause itz amazing how HE worked all these things out for us but at the same time sure not completely as we had expected or could have even planned or ever prepared for. 😀

4. Besides that I also enjoyed some really good and special times alone – myself and God – mostly hiking in the mountains. And I could make a Two days trip together with a friend to US, from Vancouver. That was really exciting for me as a mum with two little kids and there were also some other good friend times that I’ve enjoyed and that I value because those times are more rare with family responsibilities.

5. We got to drive as many different cars in 2018 as never before. Our car broke down so we had to rent some cars. In Canada we even got blessed with some of Emmanuel’s dream cars that we could use althrough the time there for free. We really felt like big boys, the Lord really honored and blessed us beyond our level of living standard. But we have been definetley rich in Him – Blessed in a way as only HE can do it. With our last car rental we got a big bill cause the rental company wanted to make us pay for a damage that was not caused by us. It brought a lot of headache to us, in the midst of our movement, and time of financial challenges, exhaustion etc. I had to go to a lawyer and fight. But praise God we won the case.

6. As I mentioned already briefly, I’ve got a job that I really like. Only God and a little bit my spouse know how much that means to me. It’s been a long process of taking the courage again to search for a job. My Job experiences as a social worker have not been the best so far so I was afraid and doubted if I could ever find a place to work where I feel good, where there is a good atmosphere in the team and where I like the work. S. th. that would give me strength and that I could easily combine with my family. Besides that I was really confused what is the right thing for me to do as a mum and homemaker. Is it right at all that I would start to work already and put my little 2 year old girl to kindergarten? And would I be even able to combine work, household, family altogether? I’m so glad that I jumped in the water because it turns out with my new working place that it strengthes me and is gain for my family. Even the household goes better and it feels like as I’m fulfilling my destiny.

7. Last but not least we could register Attap/ JEA foundation this year in Nigeria. A church had strongly on their heart to give us a bigger donation to invest in our pet-project. That was sooo amazing and helped us to make a lot of progress.

All in all I’m so glad that I took some time to reflect on the last year and to prepare for the new year. Honestly, my heart was quite heavy as 2018 was ending because I had not found peace with the year yet and I lacked understanding. But the Lord really helped me in the process so that I’ve gained hope and peace again. In counting and reminding myself what the Lord has done already in one year shows me that HE has great plans for me, HE loves me, knows what’s best for me and has everything in control. God is a God who can change anything overnight. But He doesn’t like to rush things because He is ways more interested on the health of our soul and character than just on our circumstances. When He works s. th. out for us HE is interested on everything. He is interested that we would be able to enjoy when He would change our circumstances, that we would be changed and that we would be able to maintain the blessing.

Jeremiah 29,11:

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.